Due Date

Today is my due date. Or was my due date. It's a date that I've been dreading since, well, June 7th, when I found out that I had a molar pregnancy.  This past Sunday, I had a major breakdown.  One of those crying so hard, nose running & becoming clogged, eyes puffy and red, hyperventilating breakdowns. I think Stephen was shocked.  I know he definitely wasn't expecting it.  One second I'm great, the next, a big blubbery mess of snot and tears. yum.

So prior to today, Stephen and I decided we would NOT be at home today, we would go and do fun stuff, try to keep our minds off of the fact.  Both of us were off of work, thankfully, so I got to sleep in late. :) Getting up early sucks.  We ran some necessary errands, then went to Olive Garden for lunch. So yum.  I could eat their salad all day every day. I would've rather had hospital food, but I know that's not what God had planned.

After lunch, we decided we wanted to go someplace and play video games...well, like arcade games, not like playstation or xbox.  So we googled arcades in Corpus Christi and it said there was one in Sunrise mall. There's not. There's like nothing.  While we were searching for an arcade, my obgyn, Dr. Glazener, called and said I would NOT have to have another procedure.  (She had called on 12/23/13 and said that my oncologist, Dr. Mahmood, recommended a procedure where, TMI ALERT, she goes up inside me and searches around to make sure everything with my uterus is ok.  Dr. G didn't want to do it because she said it's very invasive and high risk for hemorrhaging. She said she was going to get in contact with a specialist at a Gynecological Cancer Center in San Antonio and should be back to me in the next few days.  Needless to say, I am SO thankful the specialist said it wasn't really necessary unless my HCG levels go up again).

After the failed arcade search, we went home to take a nap and watch some Big Bang Theory. For dinner, we decided to venture back to CC and go to Gattitown! Of course they have games! and endless Icees.  Except when we got there, the Icee machine was gone, the buffet had like three nasty looking pizzas and some old looking pasta.  So we just played games.  It was so much fun just hanging out together and playing, not thinking about what we would've rather been doing (having a baby).  We ended up going to Quiznos for dinner and just talking about the plans God has for us.

We don't know what plans He has for us, but we know that Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." (ESV). So whatever God's plans are for us, we know that they're good.  We don't understand why we couldn't have a baby this time.  We don't know why I had to have a d&c and chemo or why we have to wait.  But we're trusting in Jesus. We're trusting that the Creator of the world knows better than we do.

Stephen, thank you for loving me the way you do. For helping me to see that God really DOES have better plans for us. I love you and am so very thankful for you. You're my favorite. <3

New Year's Eve

It's New Year's Eve! 

 Since Stephen & I met, each New Year's we've spent together has also been with youth at Lock-ins or at Winter Retreat.  I was so excited that this year's Winter Retreat is scheduled for January 2-4th, so we would get to celebrate New Year's together.  I imagined an evening out, dressed up and going to dinner and a movie or a party, or hanging out with friends.  Instead, we're at home because I have bronchitis, a fever, and asthma issues from the bronchitis. Yay. Not. The important thing is we're together, eating Whataburger & watching movies. 

Looking forward to a healthier 2014!  

Canon Rebel T3

For Christmas, my inlaws got me a Canon Rebel T3! I love the quality of pictures it takes, even though I have zero experience taking pics.  I'm looking forward to learning about photography, lenses, shutter speeds and more as I explore my camera.  

For now, here's a modpodge of snapshots from our Christmas Vacay in Olney:

Christmas Morning Selfie

Emma being tickled by her daddy

Stephen & me. :)

Sweet Sisters--Abby & Emma! 

Emma chasing Cole

Emma smiling while chasing Cole

Barbie Dollhouse. 17 steps? seriously?

Wait. You do what?!?

Barbie Dollhouse Completed

Uncle Stephen & Abbers 

Emma, Abby, and Aubrea

Emma & Nana's Christmas Tree

Sisters. <3

Santa Cole

Emma & Kaytie

Cheesin' Emma

Uncle Santa

Yesterday (Sat. 12/14/13), Stephen dressed up as Santa for FBC Corpus' annual breakfast with Santa.  

My favorite part about it though was that our nephew, T, got to come see his Uncle Santa.  He looked unsure of Santa when he walked in the room, but once Stephen said his name, he was like Oh! I know this guy. :) 

Thankful Thursday -- thanksgiving edition

So, so thankful for this guy. He's seriously the greatest ever. He stuck by me through all the molar pregnancy crapola & really served me how I believe Jesus wants us to serve others. 

I'm thankful for these sweet nieces. Aren't they just the cutest?!? They make me laugh so hard and are so loving. I can't wait to give then cousins one day! 

This little guy, my nephew T, makes me laugh so hard. I am so thankful for this little goober, for his HUGE, full faced smile and his sweet baby laugh.  

I am so so very thankful for my best friends, my cousins Megan and Tori. They support me through so much and love me despite my flaws. And they make me laugh SO. HARD. 

These sweet babies, Penny Sue and Sheldy Cooper. They are the sweetest furbabies  I could ever ask for. Penny especially can tell when I don't feel well and will snuggle up with me. When I went through chemo and was feeling like #?*! She would curl up next to me on the couch (or at my feet or on the ground next to me), and not move for hours. Such a good protective puppygirl. 

I can't post a picture of my last thankful post because my boss has asked me not to put pictures of her girls on the internets, but I am so so thankful for my nannying job, mostly because of the girls I nanny. E, 2 1/2 years old is absolutely hilarious. She's seriously one of the funniest kids ever. And the cutest. L, is 4 months old and has the cutest, squishiest cheeks that you can't help but kiss. The girls are like my own. I love then to pieces!  

That's all my thankfulness for now, though I'm going to try to start blogging at least once a week to jot down why I'm thankful for.